Shadow Dance 1

         -- Lorenzo Gramlich,  October 7th, 2015

What's a Shadow Dance?  It's what I call being caught up in the grips of one of my own Shadow Voices -- feeling lost, powerless, no direction or motivation, scared, unsettled, and other discomforts.



On September 9th I was very excited to launch my online book "Heart of Gold" and it's companion volume "Designing My Life"

I had been working diligently for months to create, edit, revise it and be ready to announce it online on September 9th as I'd promised.

Along the way a couple of Shadow Voices were pestering me.  The loudest one was  my "what if I threw a party and nobody came" Voice. 

I had been working so long and hard to bring something to myself, my friends and others that I thought would support us in living even more fantastic lives than we have been living. 

I was feeling great about how my life has been unfolding and I really wanted to have some partners to play such a great game with; to dialogue with, to support and be supported in living powerfully and bravely.



       - author of "Eat, Pray, Love"                

I wanted to share the possibility of me and my friends (and friends not met yet) returning to the life that our own Golden Child had originally come here to live.

Here's a short 3 minute clip of "The Golden Buddha" from the film "Finding Joe" that has helped me get very clear what Joseph Campbell meant by "Follow Your Bliss" and "the Hero's and Heroine's Journey."


Two weeks after my Big Launch Event I knew I had to do something to break through the post-launch gloom and get back to feeling the joy and vitality of living my own Hero's Journey and Following My Bliss that I'd been experiencing while I was creating my Books.

"What if I threw a party and nobody came" was getting too loud and I was unwilling to be run by that Voice any more, so I took some action.

I had a little campfire in the back yard and asked what I should do next.  It wasn't long before ideas started coming through, possibilities opening up, and my Vision was restored.



I knew that what I was going to do was stay in touch with people and I decided to commit to creating this Gazette and use it as a link between me and my friends and continue to share Possibilities of Designing Our Lives, Following Our Bliss, and stepping into our own Hero's and Heroine's Journeys.

I knew that I was going to be publishing the Gazette on the 1st and 3rd Wednesdays each month because I said I was going to do it. 

My desire and intention is that people would be drawn to it, but I wasn't going to be run my "What if I threw a party. . ." Shadow Voice.  It was my own Conscious Choice to commit to this, and what I've been learning for a long time has been to use my Commitments as a guide post, but to watch for all the Gold Nuggets along my path that show up out of living into the Commitment.




When I'm creating my Books, "Heart of Gold" and "Designing My Life", I am Following My Bliss, I am on the Path of my own Hero's Journey, and I'm feeling more alive, more connected, more grateful for having all that I have in my life. 

That is definitely more fun and enlivening than being caught in my Shadow Dance.  I am also aware that this is the beginning of reconnecting with this particular Shadow, and there will be more trials coming up involving this one.  Next time I plan on realizing that getting back on my path and sharing it with others is the appropriate action to take.

The Gold Nugget that I picked up on this path is that I see that I am going to be continuing to do my own Shadow Work and I'm going to share it with others because this is something that I love to do.  If others see some value in this in their own lives, that would be great. 

Now I am living my party, I will continue to share it with others, some will choose to join the party and some won't.  I'm doing this because it's my life's work, it is My Bliss, and I love how my life shows up when I'm on this path.

It's quite a party and you're invited.

Welcome to my Shadow Dance, and welcome to the very first edition of The Heart of Gold Gazette.


To go to the Book, "Heart of Gold", click here.

To go to the chapter, "The Shadow", click here.

To go to the Book, "Designing My Life", click here.


p.s. If you have any comments, thoughts to share, or questions, please drop me a line at:  loren123@pobox.com